Young Liars

My mast ain't so sturdy, my head is at half
I'm searching the clouds for a storm.
My lady reveals herself of marked-down freedom,
Forever cashed out to no more.
She put the plan in the blame. Who is bearing the name
For each digress who's left you up to
Save the skins for a better and the rest for a better.
We can't open, no nothing. Can't open, no nothing.

Young liars
Thank you for taking my hands
Young liars
Thank you for taking my hands

Well, it's cold and it's quiet, and cobblestone cold in here
Fucking for fear of not wanting to fear again
Lonely is all we are
Lovely so far, but my heart's still a marble in an empty jelly jar
Someday suppose that my curious nervousness stills into prescience clairvoyant consciousness
I will be calmer than cream,
Making maps out of your dreams
But will psychic ability kill the nativity or simply diminish the flinch?
Young liars
Young liars
Thank you for taking my hands

And burying them deep in the world's wet womb
Where no one can heed their commands
Where no one can heed their commands
Except young liars
Young liars

Voice strings on vocal before it on words to receive
Take my be just and all I will be is my disease.

By TV on the Radio

Stories

Last night I had a great time at the Shout Out Out Out Out show at the Pyramid. It was pretty kick ass. I liked the first time they played better. They were playing a lot of new stuff, I preferred the music from before.

The last time I seen them, and the first time I seen them, was immediately after I seen Bob Dylan in concert. I love Bob Dylan to death, he's one of the great song writers of our time, and ever. But his show was very mellow, and had a bland energy, as it was a big arena type show. So then I venture, to a smaller venue to see this other band play, and they had such amazing energy, that night, I was more entertained by them, than Bob Dylan. It's like comparing apples and oranges really. Energy and entertainment wise, they definitely gave me my moneys worth. So I was telling someone this story after the show. Before I know it the band tells me they're documenting their travels, so I'm made to repeat my story about how they're better than Bob Dylan. I'm semi hoping it doesn't make the video they decide to put together. Another part of me is hoping it makes it on there, me making a drunken ass of myself, comparing apples and oranges.

I found out a few days ago that one of my favourite bands, Eagles of Death Metal is coming to town. I'm so excited. I love them so much. Their music just makes me want to dance and have fun. The energy they have on their albums is so fun and light. Tickets go on sale tomorrow, here's hoping I score some. I'm sure I will, because not many people have heard of them. They do seem to be getting more and more popular though. I'm totally stoked. I can't wait to get tickets, and I was just talking a few months ago how much I wanted to see them.

There's just so much music stuff that keeps on popping up lately, it's just like whoa. It's all coming together at the right time and place. Everything is slowly falling into place. I think it's all unfolding the way it should be. With all this awesome music coming to me, and me going to it, and seeking it. It's totally inspiring me. I believe all these events happening, will help me find the type of artist I want to be, or at least give me a bit of insight. If I gain nothing else, at the very least, I'll be having a great time with awesome friends, listening and watching amazing music.

Charlieland

I should really be sleeping right now. It's still relatively early in Charlieland. It's after 1 am. I don't work until the afternoon, so sleep shouldn't be an issue. The issue is I need about 12 hours of sleep. I'll probably sleep shortly but who really knows.

I'm not posting from work for a change. I temporarily have access to a laptop which affords me access to wireless Internet. I'm not sure how long this arrangement will last.

Today was awesome. I met up with a few good friends, and went to the grounds of the legislative building. We smoked a joint, and just sat around, chilled and talked for the afternoon. One of my friends had a guitar, so that was fun, I brought along my Wilson Meyer. It was good fun times. Talked about various things, and topics. Brought me some insight to move on from things I cannot change.

The most complete randomness always happens to me. It's just utter randomness, I don't get it, and it always happens to me. I totally just attract random events.

I was talking with one of my friends, and there's so many awesome things coming up this week. Wednesday Shout Out Out Out Out is playing at the Pyramid. On Saturday is 80s vs 90s Night also happening at the Pyramid. It should be good fun times. I plan to dance my ass off both nights. I'm totally stoked.

I was talking with my friend earlier about these interviews I've been watching as of late. I've been totally into Queens of the Stone Age as of late, as well as the Desert Sessions. I've come to the conclusion that Josh Homme is totally amazing, and I look up to him. His interviews are amazing. I was watching this one series of interviews he was doing while promoting Lullabies to Paralyze. The question would be posed, and I was bored, and doing the thing I do, so I would talk aloud and answer the question the way I would answer it. His words were my words. The things he was thinking about music and life, were the things I was thinking. There was one thing that was a total turning point, and is one of my true beliefs. He's like if there's something you can't change, fuck it. There's no point wasting time on it. And that's one of the pillars of my life, and the one I've been struggling with the most as of late. Situations you cannot change, and not being able to just say fuck it. It was just totally amazing, and it made me appreciate him as an artist, and musician that much more. The thoughts and the words that he was conveying.

His thoughts about writing, and creating a certain imagery. But not finishing the sentence, that's up to the viewer/listener to do. It's better that way. I love his writing and his music, and the way he uses certain imagery, and how he doesn't finish the sentence, he lets us the audience do it, and I'd really like to do that with my writing.

I've been not practicing much guitar lately. I've been mainly working on words. I've come up with quite a bit of words actually, but how they will fit with music I'm unsure. I have some melodies that want to get out of my head. However they're still not sure how. My guitar skills are still very limited. That can only be helped with practice. However I find it hard to practice without getting frustrated. I must move on, control my temper and have more patience. The words are coming. I just need help with the music.

Clarification

I was thinking last night. When I started this blog I wanted it to mean something. However I've noticed lately it's just been like a journal. Too much like a journal. Like I did nothing last night. If I did nothing last night, there's no reason to post. I need to get back in that mind set, and only update my blog if there's something to really update. None of this well I have nothing to write about, my weekend was boring, etc. That makes for a boring blog, that no one will want to read. I want to make profound statements and thoughts. If I find myself posting about nothing really in particular, there will be no post. I don't want this to be all filler, I want it to be something people actually read, and take something away from it. So hopefully all of my future posts will actually mean something, or have something to say. I will continue to post about movies and music in my life, amazing instances that have happened, and whatnot. But I will no longer be posting about nothing at all.

So yeah

Easter with the family was good. Got back into the city Monday night. Sunday night I went and chilled with Travis. We watched Repo: The Genetic Opera. It was alright. I might watch it again, afterwards we watched 10 Things I Hate About You. I love that movie. Go teenage high school movies about love and what not. Monday when I got back into the city, didn't really do anything. Yesterday I worked a long ass shift, and today I'm at work again. At least it's a short week, and next week is a short week, as I have taken Monday off. I don't really have anything exciting going on for this week, or this weekend. I hope something comes up within the next few days. Actually on Saturday, my aunt's husband and I are going to the WAG and going to check out the Marilyn Monroe exhibit. We shall see how that goes. He also mentioned doing something else. That seems to be primarily a day thing. I have nothing going on for the evenings. Next week seems to be shaping up well. Monday go chill with a few friends at the legislative building. Wednesday go see this awesome dance/eletronica band from Edmonton.

Oh my god, my coworker just informed me of this awesome Hip Hop festival. Rock The Bells, it's going down this summer in Vancouver and Toronto. I'm totally down. Road trip out to Vancouver this summer is so in order!! I'm so stoked. There's no dates, venues, prices for tickets on their website as of yet. But I am so ready to go regardless. The line up is fucking awesome!! Nas & Damien Marley, The Roots, Common, and much more!! Man I'm totally excited and pumped.

Hurricane

The breeze greets the ocean
With friendly intentions
It responds with cool trepidation
The breeze waits with
much anticipation
They mingle and grow fond
of one another
And work to create
this intense bond
The tension builds up inside
There's so much pressure
there's nowhere to hide
from the storm that's about
to be unleashed
Together they create hurricanes, baby
Nothing can stop the
path that they have set
You better not stand in their way
Unless you're prepared to let
Everything go away
They have absolutely nothing left
to prove
The tension builds up inside
There is so much pressure
there's nowhere to hide
Nothing will remain in their wake
They get everything they
can take.
And break what
they can't have.
The energy is they release
is so obscene.
Everyone knows what it means.
The tension builds up inside
There's so much pressure
There's nowhere to hide
It's here for everyone to see.
You better get
out of their path
Unless you're ready to
feel their wrath.

Self-Determination and Booty Liberation

Dancing for a free Palestine was off the hook. It was most definitely a night of self - determination and booty liberation as promised. I'm out on my reserve right now, for the next day or two. I got here last night. Sat around and visited with my family. Today is pretty much the same. We'll be having our Easter dinner in a bit. I'm really looking forward to next week. Monday the 20th should be fun. Getting together with a few friends for a day date, followed by chilling at the legislative building in the afternoon. Guitars and Wilson Meyers will be had by all! It should be a good fun time. This awesome band Shout Out Out Out Out is playing at the pyramid on the 22nd. That should be a good fun time. The last time I went and seen them was after I seen Bob Dylan in November. They put on an amazing show, they just have really great energy. It should be an awesome night of dancing and partying. I'm totally stoked. They put on a better show than Bob Dylan. It was more entertaining anyways. The Weakerthans are playing this upcoming weekend. I really really want to go see them, but I'm unsure if I will. I just wanna get out and go to as many shows as humanly possible. Just going out and dancing, having a great time with friends, and meeting awesome new people. It's what I'm all about at this moment in time.

A Surrender to Strangeness

Fightin' with the neighbours and screwin' the wife
Hip hop music ruined my life
I bitch and I moan, I lie and I cheat
Waiting for the night when I die in my sleep
I listen to the jukebox and sit by the bar
Taking care of a dog that got hit by a car
Praying for salvation, needing a miracle
Drowning in new music and reading material
Shoe laces untied, telling people I'm rich
Who can't tell the difference between real art
and high kitch
Mouth like a broken bottle,
crooked and bottomless
Half wolf, half crow, half hippopotamus
Sturdy as a paper bag, as well, my face is flawed
But keeping the fire going by the grace of god
And I'm loathe to think that we missed our chance
To find a way out of this downward dance
We got it all wrong

Singing a song with a rock in my mouth
Nobody knows what I am talking about
Lose without a marketing plan and a stylist
Here comes the vilest nihilist finalist
Once and for all, barbed wire and rope
The most beautiful woman is strung out on dope
Slowly the music died, died, died...
Three white horses side by side
Last chance to change, you better hurry. Quick
Laying in a bed, wide awake and I'm worried sick
Completely out-foxed,
I hide from the phone I swear this pen
has a mind of its own
Jaws that go through solid steel, a clenched fist
A breath of fresh air for once and a French kiss
The weight of the world and collapsable me
I'm talking about trouble with a capital T
We got it all wrong.

Very stellar song by Buck 65

Fun Times

Fun times. Monday night was pretty stellar. Went to go see Inward Eye at The Albert for their video shoot. It was awesome fun times. I'm pretty sure me and my friend will be in their next music vid. We were definitely in the crowd shots. They're so full of energy and put an awesome live show. I can't wait to see a full set from them at Rock on the Range this summer. They did a pretty short set, and played the same songs over and over, because after all it was a video shoot. It was all said and done by 11:30. But good fun times none the less, and it was a free show after all. Friday is some awesome danciness party, with some local DJ's. Should be fun. Saturday I have a dilemma. Part of me wants to leave the city for the long weekend, however Saturday night Sub City Dwellers is playing at Hooligans. I really want to see Sub City, they just make me wanna dance and have a good worry free time. I'll figure out what to do in due course. I'm definitely looking forward to Friday. After Thursday I officially have a 4 days off. I'm so stoked. No plans really for tonight. Friday is dancing, then Saturday when I get up, I'll decide whether to leave the city, or if I should stay for Sub City Dwellers.

The Game

Friday I went to visit a friend, that was fun. Heard some awesome new music. We listened to my Tommy Guerrero Cd, along with another album of his. I was also introduced to this band called Little Joy. It's the drummer from The Strokes, and this other person from a Brazilian band called Los Hermanos. I really enjoy them. They're really cool and chill. I believe I now need to find their Cd and what not. On Saturday I worked all day, and wasn't enjoying it. I tried to read but there was a constant influx of people. My Saturday night was very chill, I hid out in my room all evening, listening to music and reading The Game: Penetrating the Secret Society of Pickup Artists written by Neil Strauss. I finished it last night. It's such an amazing book. I really enjoy Neil's style of writing. I've read a few of the books he's ghostwritten in the past. I love writers, who write the way they talk. It's just so easy to follow and pulls you in. Yesterday I went for one of my volunteer workshops at the radio station. I need to do another one or two. Then I'll be an official volunteer. Hurrah! It was good fun times. Last night was much the same as Saturday, I hid in my room, finished reading The Game, and listened to more music. I'm just playing some background music right now, and I'm you tubing Little Joy. I'm really enjoying them more, actually listening to them. I most definitely need to go out and get their album. I'm so tired. I think after work tonight, if all goes according to plan, I'll arrive home, take a nap for an hour or two. Get up, then get ready go go watch Inward Eye at The Albert tonight. It should be a kick ass show, it's free of charge. Doors open at 9, I don't have to be at work until 1:30 tomorrow. It's totally perfect. Hopefully I can get it. If we go too late, I'm sure it'll be packed. But I don't want to be one of the first people there. Ugh the dilemma, having to keep up the image of being cool, without being too cool that you show up so late there's no way of getting in. And saying that just made me the uncoolest person in the room. Haha. Knowing myself though a nap won't happen tonight, and I'll just be uber exhausted tomorrow. Which I can totally deal with. The plan is definitely to rest up before the show, though. Tonight I shall work my game at the show, learning what I learned from the book I've been reading. Who am I kidding, I don't need a book to help me with my game.

Ouch

Putting shoes on hurts. I greatly underestimated the feeling when I got the tops of my feet tattooed two days ago. Every time I put on my shoes, it's pain. Not completely unbearable, it's just when I initially put my shoes on. It's a stinging, dragging pain. Last night I decided to retire early, so I went upstairs to my guest room to sleep. However upon arriving in my guest room, I decided to read and listen to music. After about an hour I started feeling unwell, so I decided it was best to go to bed. I laid in bed for about 30 minutes, without falling asleep. So I decided to get back up, I got high, played my music loud. I also broke out the acoustic guitar. I have not touched her in well over a month. I got her all nice and tuned, and played her until about 2 in the morning. It was a good feeling. However my playing is incredibly rusty, and wasn't very good to begin with. I need to practice more often if I want to get my music thing rolling. So that's on the agenda, more guitar practice, along with more writing. Music is becoming more and more of my life. I'm thoroughly enjoying it. At the moment I'm at work listening to Sub City Dwellers, updating my blog. I was reading The Watchmen, however I decided to take a break for a bit. I'm almost done work, I'm looking forward to it. This evening seems like it'll be busy. I had planned to go visit a friend tonight, but that might be postponed. Another friend today called me at work, saying he needed to talk to me in person. So I'm kind of concerned with that, seeing as I just talked with him yesterday. He told me what was up with him, etc. So now I'm just wondering what he needs to tell me now, I'm so curious. I'm going to try leave work early, that way I can see him get that out of the way, and it'll still be relatively early so I can go visit my other friend. Hopefully I have enough time for everything I had planned this evening.

Stellar

Yesterday was awesome. It was like one of the best days ever, besides the crazy snow storm we got. Yesterday was such a great day, the snow storm didn't even bother me. I got these cute little skull tattoos on my feet. They're so adorable, they're white, and have little black daisies on their heads. I worked a long shift, but it wasn't that unbearable. After work, I attempted to go shopping, however the roads were horrible, so I decided it was best for me to go home. Before work, after the tattoos, I went to the mall. I bought myself some super cute shoes from American Eagle. I can't wait until the snow melts and I can wear them. They'll look super awesome with my new tats. I also bought a few Cd's yesterday. I bought two Trews albums, they're pretty stellar. Although I can't stop listening to the Weakerthans for the life of me. When I arrived home last night, I noticed something in the mailbox. It was the Cd by Tommy Guerrero, I've been waiting YEARS for. I was so happy I almost cried when I opened up, and seen the Cd for the first time. I'm so glad to have finally gotten it. I listened to a bit of it last night. It's so good, just exactly as I remembered, if not better. But like I said I can't stop listening to the Weakerthans for the life of me. I really want to listen to A Little Bit of Somethin' by Tommy Guerrero, but I can't seem to find the attention span to do it. The only thing my mind can listen to consistently is the Weakerthans. I'm sure in a week or two I will have moved on to something else. Hopefully it'll be Tommy Guerrero. I was up until the wee hours of the morning just enjoying music and listening to it. I was listening to my mp3 library on shuffle, so I got to hear a lot of great songs I haven't heard for a really long time. At one point this one song came on, and it reminded me of someone so much. I couldn't stop thinking of them, and wanted them there with me at that moment, and I started crying because I missed them so much, or wanted them that badly. It was a weird moment for me. I don't know if a song has ever made me cry in that way before. I've listened to songs that have made me cry because it was an old tormented love song, and I've cried tears of sadness. But these were more tears of happiness, because this person is in my life and one of my good friends. I just wanted so much for him to be there with me. I then listened to the song on repeat for about 20 minutes. It was just so bizarre and unexpected, I did not see myself, reacting that way to a song. It was so unexpected, I was sitting there singing along with the song, and all of sudden tears were streaming down my face, and because of the unexpected reaction, I couldn't stop listening to the song. I had to finally force myself to move on from the song. But yesterday was awesome, just for the experiences and the shopping, and the feelings that I felt. I have not experienced some of those feelings in the longest time. Feeling the emotions that I felt yesterday was just amazing, and they took me by surprise.