Insane in the Membrane

Last night and this morning was so fucking insane. Just total fucking insanity, and that's all I have to say about that. It was fun, but insane nonetheless. Just as soon as I started this blog. I shall soon be internetless soon, I will be able to update from work I suppose. It's not like I do much else at work. I shall soon be getting it back again, at some point, just unsure exactly when. I hear a brand new laptop might be in my future. That excites the hell out of me, lets hope this comes true. I went shopping today, totally tired and exhausted from last night/this morning. I did buy some cute jeans and an awesome sweater, and just some sweats. I broke one of my favourite earrings last night. I hope I can find the other piece to it and glue it back together. I need to clean. I can't concentrate and just wind down with all this shit around me. I need to relax and chill. That's the agenda for tomorrow. Learn to live life without the internet, and with all that spare time I shall clean. Hopefully I'll get back to the gym now with this no internet jazz. In the evening my plan for tomorrow is chill, maybe watch Life of Brian, because after someone texted me Blogus Updatus earlier for some strange reason I thought of Bigus Dickus, from said movie. I now own this movie, finally!! Haven't watched it yet since I received the gift. I got tickets to see Propagandhi. I'm so fucking stoked and excited. It's totally badical, it's going to be such an awesome night, like their CD release party. It's going to be off the hook, but it's in March so it's still awhile away. Propagandhi reminds me of high school, and had some of the greatest moments of my life in high school. It was so much fun being on the fringe, and observing people. This upcoming week should be interesting. I'm sure my mind will wander in the upcoming days, and I'm sure I'll find a moment to update my random nonsense on here. I don't really have anything else to say at the moment, which is very rare for me. So I shall leave it at that.

Todays Thoughts

I can't say that anything very interesting happened to me today. I worked an 8 hour shift. Listened to music the entire time. Went on youtube watched a few short films. Wrote a little bit. But nothing too exciting. I have such a lax job it's awesome. I get paid to go on youtube, listen to music, and write, essentially. I do little else. Sometimes people come in, and I provide customer service. But it's pretty quiet and people tend to leave me alone. I've been listening to a lot of Everlast as of late. He's just so amazing. I really admire him, and the stories that he tells in his lyrics are just beautiful, and heartbreaking. He seems to have such a deep insight into life, just by learning from personal experience. I try to strive for that in my own life, by agreeing to do things I shouldn't be doing, or going on otherwise dangerous or risky adventures. However if I see the adventure through, I have an amazing story to tell, and have lived life that much more. You can't learn from life by not experiencing things. I believe the only way to truly learn something is to experience it yourself, and not rely on what other people say as the truth. I've been just reintroducing me to myself over the past year and a bit, and I still have a lot to learn. Music I realised is a huge part of who I am. In fact creativity is a huge part of who I am. I never before considered myself a creative person. I always considered myself an academic, books and school that was my life. I've always enjoyed music and film, and I was always secretly jealous of the makers of music and film for their creativity. I believed creativity wasn't a part of me, me and it didn't mix. I always wanted us to mix, but it was like oil and water. So I followed my chosen path, which was academics. However after choosing this path for myself, I realised I wasn't doing it for myself, I was doing it because it's what society wanted from me. They whoever they are, tried to stifle my creativity now it's time for my creativity to be unleashed. Who knows I may come up with pure rubbish, or I may be completely brilliant. I'll never know until I try, and that's what has stopped me before. I've been too afraid to try and fail, I didn't have enough courage, I didn't believe enough in myself. I've learned a lot about myself in this past year and a half. I am strong enough, I do have the courage. I need to say I at least tried, because if you don't at least try, you'll never know, and you'll always leave yourself wondering what may have been. I don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering about the what ifs. So my life is on a new path now, which I find exciting. I've been on this path for a while actually, but the journey is so far amazing. I totally ran off on a tangent there. I was talking about Everlast, then all of a sudden about my life and what it's all about, I constantly do that. But yes Everlast, he's an amazing writer and I wish I could write the way he does. Well not the way he does, but have the story telling ability to grab people in, and make them listen and feel real emotion. I'd love to be able to make people feel that way. I've been paying way more attention to lyrical content as of late, even more so than I normally do. I'm searching for inspiration and actually finding it. It's a great new feeling. King of Leon are also amazing, along with The White Stripes and of course Queens of the Stone Age. But on my playlist as of late has been predominately Everlast, Kings of Leon and The White Stripes.

The Beginning

Everything has a beginning. This is the beginning of my blog. It'll be a place for me to store random nonsense. Rant and rave about my life. Perhaps post some original writings. It'll serve it's purpose of a journal of some sort. Names may or may not be changed depending on the situation. Some of the things I write on here will take place in the real world, some of the things will have happened in some far off place, that doesn't really exist. I've resisted having a blog for the longest time. However I was convinced by a genius to take up blogging. So I heeded her advice and here I am. I want to keep this anon as possible. I will say this much about myself. I'm a 20-somethings female. You'll discover that my life revolves around Music and Film. I also enjoy the quest for adventure. I love adventures, in fact I often say there's nothing more to life than gathering up stories, oh and the stories I've gathered up through the years. Hopefully my I'll run into way more adventures and stories along the way, and I'll have plenty more to say and tell.