Wandering the streets of this city

Wandering the streets of this city
Tryin to clear my mind
Nothin is workin
Wanting all my thoughts to go away
Worrying about nothin and everthin
Don't know what to do
Hoping my worries and fears
Don't turn out to be true
My brain is so scattered
Tryin to make sense of it all
So confused and lost
With nowhere to go
And no one to turn to
Who'll understand this
Fucked up situation
Always manage to get myself into these messes
It might just not be myself this time
Dragging someone in
Who doesn't deserve it
It's all my fault and no one else's
Must take blame for my indiscretions

Been feeling somewhat anti-social as of late. I don't know what's up with me. Been extremely moody and short with people for absolutely no reason. I don't want to do anything, just sleep. But I can't sleep. Sleep eludes me, it's some myth.

Reoccurring headaches. I haven't had chronic headaches in years. Now they're coming back with vengeance. Weird stabbing pains in odd areas. I hate complaining. But I miss sleeping in the most. I often find myself waking at normal people hours, when all I want to do is sleep for a few more hours.

He up and left me yesterday
Today he came and took my dog away
This place is so empty now
Just last week
We were so happy
Playing house
Now it's more silent
than a mouse
My thoughts bouncing off these walls
Ain't got nothin'
but time to think
For him I'd up and leave
to go any place
Instead he went away
On his own
and left me here
all alone

Laying in bed alone at night
Trying to convince myself that you're Mr. Right
How could my heart lead me astray
Wanting to live our lives this way
Not wanting to live a lie
Wanting this to be true
How could my views be this askew?
Don't know what I want
Trying to convince myself otherwise
Most things that come out of me are lies
So good at playing this game
But you're so very wrong for me